Today I feel like letting out something i have kept to myself for a long time. For years i have been a overweight kid, in a family that in a way was hard on me because of it. It wasn't until i decided to get the band that I really made a decision on losing weight myself.
Prior to this journey, I had been in a weight loss program my freshman to junior years of school, and it started out pretty good but then I started going for the wrong reasons and eventually was kicked out. I stop caring about my size and in 2013 when I went away to college i had a wake up call. I bought a scale from Wal-Mart that had a maximum weight of 400. I personally figured I shouldn't be anymore, i step on the scale and the scale says error, The embarrassment and shame I felt at that moment is the biggest I felt in my life. I would later find out that I weighed 420.
For years i had said to myself if i ever weighed over 400, i would kill myself, not literally, i just never thought I would let myself get that big. if you saw me in the street you wouldn't believe that was my weight, but yes i'm a big boy. That number 420 is very significant for me, i know people think weed when they see that number, but I see years of regret and laziness. I see a person i never wanted to become. I see the old me, a me that has died and will never be resurrected. 420 will be a number that forever stays with me as a reminder of where I came from, its the most I have ever weighed and I plan on never going back near that number.
420 is gonna be the reason why in a year from now you see a new me. I have pictures of me at that size and when I get to a good weight, I will show them, the before and after. If anyone sees this, I appreciate your support. May you all lead healthy and happy lives.
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