Update: At a crossroads

I have wanted to get back into writing for this blog, but i haven't really had any inspiration. I mean that probably sounds pretty dumb because all I have to do is detail my journey with the lap band, but for some reason I just lost the excitement I had when i first started this blog in march. When I first deactivated this and i lost all my entries i really felt bad because I was writing a lot of good stuff that could've helped people, but know i don't really care. To be quite honest my journey has come to a standstill, i'm not losing weight and I just have no joy for life right now. Some of you may be wondering if that has to do with the girl from my last post, not at all. In fact i have realized that if someone else makes her happy, let her go do that, I know what kind of guy I am and its her lost. I am unhappy because i have realized that my life is not at the place that i thought it would be and instead of picking myself u and turning things around, i'm dwelling in the negative. its hard not to get into a slump, i have no job, I have lost the urge to workout and i just feel like i'm going nowhere in my life. I'm too embarrassed to go to anybody for help and i just don't know what to do. I need some inspiration, maybe if i start writing it will help, i don't know, but i need to make a change quick because mentally this isn't a good place to be. If anyone is out there and happens to see this, don't be afraid to comment or anything, i would love to interact with you if possible. Until next time, Peace and Love!!!!!